urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy my_emergancy my_emergancy 2005-12-19T10:50:30Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:8342 2005-12-19T10:50:30Z 2005-12-19T10:50:30Z dear hailey<br />you are the sweetest girl i know<br />you love and care for everyone around you<br />no i dont know you like the back of my hand<br />but i wish u did it would have to be a pretty big hand though<br />coz im sure there are lots of interesting things u could tell me<br />im glad i met you and wouldnt have it any other way<br />i wish i knew you a few years b4 so that we would have more time together<br />but im not going anywhere and i hope u arent either so we have a lot of time<br />i know you will be there if i ever get upset even though its terribly hard <br />to be upset around you since you always make me laugh<br />you treat everyone like there specialy and i know its not an act<br />i wish i was creative like you. so i could surprise you<br />with letters like this insted of being told to write them<br />but i spose its ok since these are all my special words for you<br />if i had a million photos i would put them here<br />so everyone can see how pretty u r<br />but this photo is my favorite <br />its our first photo together and we both look good<br /><br /><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y131/Pixie2/318655218_l.jpg" /><br /><br />i love you hailey<br />dont forget it!<br />u mean a lot to me. :D<br />xoxo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:8051 2005-12-19T10:42:31Z 2005-12-19T10:42:31Z i havent written in forever<br /><br />this year<br />totally pointless<br />i so could have done without it!<br /><br />i have made lots of friends though<br />ones that i love ever so much<br /><br />i have also lost friends<br />death and stupid fights<br /><br />move on<br />be happy<br /><br />ill use what i wrote in someones blog coz i liked it<br /><br />have a merry christmas<br />and i hope next year will be a happy year not just for me or you but for all the other sufferes in the world.<br /><br />love you all<br />xo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:7840 2005-07-23T09:15:36Z 2005-07-23T09:15:36Z i have lost a friend, not a close friend and i barely knew him but he was a friend.<br />he was such a nice guy and i hope he knows we love him ever so much.<br />i wish i got to know him more so at least he would recognise me but its to late now<br />i worry about everyone around me being ever so devistated and i hope they know i love them. <br />we will get through this because we have eachother.<br />xoxo urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:7511 2005-03-28T11:25:38Z 2005-03-28T11:25:38Z Wounded - GC so this is it<br />i told him<br />its not good<br />he doesnt like me<br />im sitting here balling my eyes out<br />i dont know i was exspecting it but it still hurts<br />i dont like the answer i have but ill live and ill get through this<br />hmm...<br />listening to wounded doesnt help<br />my chest hurts it feels like someone has ripped my heart out.<br /><br /><br />Lost and broken<br />Hopeless and lonely<br />Smiling on the outside<br />Hurt beneath my skin<br /><br />My eyes are fading<br />My soul is bleeding<br />I'll try to make it seem okay<br />But my faith is wearing thin<br /><br />So help me heal these wounds<br />They've been open for way too long<br />Help me fill this soul<br />Even though this is not your fault<br /><br />But I'm open <br />And I'm bleeding<br />All over your brand new rug<br />And I need someone to help me sew them up<br /><br />I only wanted a magazine<br />I only wanted a movie screen<br />I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed<br /><br />And now my mind is an open book<br />And now my heart is an open wound<br />And now my life is an open soul for all to see<br /><br />But help me heal these wounds<br />They've been open for way too long<br />Help me fill this soul<br />Even though this is not your fault<br /><br />That I'm open and I'm bleeding<br />All over your brand new rug<br />And I need someone to help me<br />So you come along<br />I push you away<br />Then kick and scream for you to stay<br />Cuz I need someone to help me<br />Oh I need someone to help me<br />To help me heal these wounds<br />They've been open for way too long<br />Help me fill this soul<br />Even though this is not your fault<br /><br />That I'm open<br />And I'm bleeding<br />All over your brand new rug<br />And I need someone to help me sew them<br />I need someone to help me fill them<br />I need someone to help me close them up urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:7211 2005-03-26T14:18:03Z 2005-03-26T14:18:03Z In The Mood - Brian Setzer Orchestra well long time havent writen anything is ages <br />hmm well not much 2 say part from the fact im really fucked up<br />i like someone heaps and a few people know and i dont get it the person i like is pretty thick HE DOESNT SEE IT im so fucken obvious i would say what i do 2 make it obvious but its 2 risky for him 2 see i mean i want him 2 know but then again i dont its quite complicated. Right not its 2 early in the morning for my liking but o well i guess i cant help it.<br />ahaha im so calling bones t bone...yes! im brilliant.<br />hmm what else has been happening easter 2morow....yay! :|<br />im obsessing over stray cats and living end its great i mean ive always been obsessed with tle but its growing ever so much now and man the stray cats specialy brian setzer o its wonderful!<br />well i might as well type about 2day while i wait for the brian setzer orchestra video 2 download.<br />2day was really boring all i did was hang in the city with the goths it was so boring i mean they werent but just the day in general part from going 2 glorias with snowy and steegan that was fun we had a good ol' bitch lol...then went back 2 flinders 2 bum for a few more hours till i went home with kb. joyfull!<br />xoxo<br />Steph urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:7135 2005-01-02T02:24:10Z 2005-01-02T02:24:10Z good charlotte - wounded Lost and broken<br />Hopeless and lonely<br />Smiling on the outside<br />Hurt beneath my skin<br /><br />My eyes are fading<br />My soul is bleeding<br />I'll try to make it seem okay<br />But my faith is wearing thin<br /><br />So help me heal these wounds<br />They've been open for way too long<br />Help me fill this soul<br />Even though this is not your fault<br /><br />But I'm open<br />And I'm bleeding<br />All over your brand new rug<br />And I need someone to help me sew them up<br /><br />I only wanted a magazine<br />I only wanted a movie screen<br />I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed<br /><br />And now my mind is an open book<br />And now my heart is an open wound<br />And now my life is an open soul for all to see<br /><br />But help me heal these wounds<br />They've been open for way too long<br />Help me fill this soul<br />Even though this is not your fault<br /><br />That I'm open and I'm bleeding<br />All over your brand new rug<br />And I need someone to help me<br />So you come along<br />I push you away<br />Then kick and scream for you to stay<br />Cuz I need someone to help me<br />Oh I need someone to help me<br />To help me heal these wounds<br />They've been open for way too long<br />Help me fill this soul<br />Even though this is not your fault<br /><br />That I'm open<br />And I'm bleeding<br />All over your brand new rug<br />And I need someone to help me sew them<br />I need someone to help me fill them<br />I need someone to help me close them up<br /><br /><br />...so true urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:6677 2004-12-25T00:56:29Z 2004-12-25T00:57:51Z murder - gc 01. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? <br />- lol many things....GOT MY GC TICKET!<br />02. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?<br />- i cant remeber mine but i made a new one<br />03. Did anyone close to you give birth? <br />- no but we did have a couple pregnat scares<br />04. Did anyone close to you die?<br />- yes my granfather<br />05. What countries did you visit?<br />- none<br />06. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? <br />- going to england<br />07. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?<br />- missing hte mxpx concert, that was tragic<br />08. What was your biggest achievement of the year? <br />- passing school<br />09. What was your biggest failure? <br />- dont know<br />10. Did you suffer illness or injury? <br />- yeah i was sick quite a lot<br />11. What was the best thing you bought? <br />- the GC album<br />12. 3 Favourite Bands of the year? <br />- Good Charlotte, The CLash and The knockabouts<br />13. 3 Favourite cd's of the year? <br />- the chronicals of life and death<br />- From Here On In<br />- Quality soft core<br />14. Where did most of your money go? <br />- gigs, alcohol and cds<br />15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? <br />- GOOD CHARLOTTE TICKETS!!<br />16. What song will always remind you of 2004? <br />- Today Is In My Way - mxpx<br />17. Compared to this time last year, are you:<br />i. happier or sadder? happpier <br />ii. thinner or fatter? im the same<br />iii. richer or poorer? richer<br /><br />18. What do you wish you'd done more of?<br />- study<br />19. What do you wish you'd done less of?<br />- msn (ur so right dave)<br />20. How will you be spending Christmas?<br />- with my family<br />21. What LJ users did you meet?<br />- ??<br />22. Did you fall in love in 2004?<br />- yeah...kind of...not love but lust<br />23. How many one-night stands?<br />- a couple<br />24. What was your favorite TV program?<br />- futurama, 2 guys a girl and a pizza place, fawlty towers many more<br />25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?<br />- nope<br />26. What was the best book you read? <br />- the ELlie chronicals - john marsden<br />27. What was your greatest musical discovery? <br />- The Adicts<br />28. What did you want and get? <br />- GC TICKETS<br />29. What did you want and not get? <br />- creepers<br />30. What was your favorite film of this year? <br />- hmm to many to pick from<br />31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?<br />- 14 i cant remeber<br />32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? <br />- going to the mxpx concert<br />33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? <br />- eh' its what i wear<br />34. Did you get any piercings in 2004? <br />- nope<br />35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? <br />- GOOD CHARLOTTE<br />36. What political issue stirred you the most? <br />- screw politics<br />37. Who did you miss? <br />- mxpx<br />38. Who was the best new person you met?<br />- i met a lot of people and i love them all<br />39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004. <br />- dont ask 4 things last minute<br />40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.<br />- 'Manifest individually<br />Manifest a sense of reality<br />Because it's non exclusive<br />Don't be so elusively blind<br />Things are never what they seem<br />You don't know what you'll find<br />Right now!' - mxpx urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:6432 2004-12-25T00:41:10Z 2004-12-25T00:41:10Z GC - The World Is Black man im so happy!!!!! i got good charlotte tickets for chrissy!!!!!!!! im sooooooo excited! yay! im going to the concert its so unreal, man i neally cried when i saw it i didnt belive it. im still shock<br />- steph urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:6312 2004-12-18T03:54:12Z 2004-12-18T03:54:12Z 99% Fat - At The Meat im all tierd like...mmm i should call shelley...<br />y doesn't she answer?<br />mm good old 99% Fat great band, i wish i could of seen them b4 they broke up.<br />nothing really 2 write...<br />- steph urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:6079 2004-12-15T05:25:15Z 2004-12-15T05:25:15Z me and my brother spent all day cleaning the backyard,cleaning inside it was fun but im all sore...well my fingers r. mum decided 2 b funny and write 'backyard blitz' on the things 2 do, i crossed it out and worte 'child labour insted'grr brother sprayed me with the hose got nothing else 2 say<br /><br /><br />- steph urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:5716 2004-12-09T09:42:08Z 2004-12-09T09:42:08Z GC - Mountain well where do i begin<br />shelley said i didnt describe what happened at the party in detail, so i will.<br />So i get to the party with Maddy and gemma and we straight away start drinking (yay!) and i got tipsy off one VB it was embaressing and i got told off by jamia's mum she was like 'slow down missy' pft i had one beer and she was getting all worried. Anyway the cunt dogs played they were brilliant and so were twist and knockabouts. Lol grant got whiskey on his chest and he was like 'someone lick this whiskey off my chest' knowing me i did it lol it was fun. so forth so on me and grant hooked up people got worried coz we went off and they couldnt find us. Then we left we got kicked out and me and shelley stayed at gemmas. thats all that happened r u happy shelley?<br />- steph urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:5624 2004-12-07T08:08:44Z 2004-12-07T08:08:44Z NoFX - there she goes ive been in good moods and bad moods.<br />the party was good....part from what happened with grant not saying i didn't enjoy it i just think it shouldn't of happened and Bec is for sure gonna hate me for it. <br />chorals has been stressful. <br />dont have much to say.<br /> - luv steph urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:5170 2004-11-28T09:50:36Z 2004-11-28T09:50:36Z the end isnt far away!! *sings* i hold there drinks, bring there stuff back stage, bring there equiptment on stage, scratch there backs and then hang out with them after the gig come on how much more of a groupie can u be?<br />man today was so much fun, i love our friends so much!!!<br />a lot of people rocked up for the knockabouts and we skanked about had a little dance then we all stayed at fed square and chilaxed!! so fucken awsome! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:4934 2004-11-26T09:49:43Z 2004-11-26T09:49:43Z mxpx - demo chick magnet *smiles* im in a good mood.<br />after school today i was so happy, i was in such a loving mood. <br />We watched 'Heathers' but we didn't finish it. Oh Well Ruby told me the end anyway.<br />I had sport today and me and sarah just sat in near the portables coz we couldn't be bothered playing sport. We had a lovley talk about everything.<br />I think i still have feelings for hamish...hmmm...<br />o well don't know what i want right now.<br />my hands smell like sushi mmm sushi...<br />We went to flinders after school, that was semi fun, stupid grant was there and he called me a sloth so i'm not talking to him.<br />i'm going shopping tomorow with my mother for my chorals costume! should be fun then Sunday is The knockabouts i haven't asked if i can go yet i'll ask tomorow afternoon.<br />thats all i really have to say<br />luv steph urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:4780 2004-11-22T00:33:10Z 2004-11-22T00:33:10Z none well today is a good day<br />im having fun<br />part from the so called 'friend' ditching me<br />and walking in the room when i was complaining about her being me and how she is genuraly a good person untill she decides to hate u<br />meh<br />o well<br />im ment to meet monica after school 2night<br />jaz wanted me 2 go with her to say good bye to lewy but i can't :(<br />so shes gonna give him 20 bucks and from me and tell him i say bye<br />ohh im gonna miss him...<br />why is everyone leaving us? well i no lewy is coming back but still<br />people like josh ain't<br />hmm which reminds me we need to find a place 2 have a party for him.<br />hmmmm me and bianca should sit down and think about this...<br />jamias party is soon<br />yay!<br />mmm i have to get grants birthday present soon, maybe this thursday...<br />i should go this period is neally done wow this day is going semi fast<br />catcha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:4482 2004-11-19T07:06:40Z 2004-11-19T07:06:40Z It Wasn't Enough - GC might aswell make this my 17th entry.<br />*Sigh* mum & dad aint letting me go 2 the gig 2morow<br />im really upset<br />monica wants 2 get the knockabouts 2 dedicate the gig 2 me and other people who couldnt go<br />i doubt they love me enough.<br />*sigh* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:4342 2004-11-16T08:34:06Z 2004-11-16T08:39:19Z nice n' sleazy - The Stranglers stupid feelings about people<br />i like 2 people at the moment<br />they both don't know, nor will they.<br />I don't like one more than the other.<br />There both awsome people, and so very different from each other.<br />It's so confusing.<br />shelleys bet is over.<br />i didn't so much give in, i just realised how stupid it was (thank you andrew)<br />bloody gabe, haven't spoken to him in ages. <br />he thinks hes done something wrong, he hasn't his just never online when im on.<br />knockabouts playing this weekend.<br />Saturday,The Knockabouts (*does dance*), Area 7 (yay!), H Block (yay!yay!), SLC & Nurnberger. The Tote, 12pm. $12.<br />yay! come it will b fun...whoeva u are... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:4003 2004-11-13T11:01:12Z 2004-11-13T11:01:12Z the adicts - who spilt my beer ok so i dont write anymore its not like anyone reads this<br />ive been having fun latley<br />i love my friends so much<br />i have taken heaps of photos of them<br />ive been mostly hanging out with people and today we had so much fun<br />we went bowling for shelleys birthday<br />then we went got lunch then they got ice cream ( i dont eat ice cream)<br />then we met up with Wade and Joesph and we went to gloria j/geans (cant spell it) <br />it was so funny those to put 2gether is like watching the comedy channel<br />we sat and talked about cake (hehehe) and other funny stuff<br />then we all went back to flinders <br />i was forced by Jethro to go down to the park 4 the 50th time that day<br />then we went and told cam that monica liked him<br />jethro wanted 2 drink in the tree with me and maddy but i didnt want to coz it brought back to many memories not saying they were bad but its something that would b a bit awquade.<br />I couldnt find monica for half an hour and i got pissed off coz i wanted to go home<br />i finaly found her and we went home<br />so that was my wonderful day<br />tomorow i get to see the knockabouts it shall be so much fun! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:3382 2004-10-19T08:52:18Z 2004-10-19T08:52:18Z none man im bored i should b writing 2 my pen pal but i havent writen in this for ages! *yawn* mm i have gemmas b'day party this friday it shall b joyful well if i find out what were doin then ill tell u if it will b joyful well imm talking 2 people on msn so its kinda hard 2 write now urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:3126 2004-10-16T07:18:25Z 2004-10-16T07:18:25Z living end :( i didnt go 2 mxpx it shows how much my parents hate me! its not fare i really really wanted to go and im so depresed about it but i guess they will come around again :( o well...<br />anyway on a happier note i met the new guy in stars n stripes his really cool but andy the bastard was being so mean 2 me!!:p!! o well ill get him back sooner or later...my jacket is neally done i have 2 put 2 more patches on then super glue some stuff on it should look good! well i have nothing really 2 say.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:2866 2004-10-11T11:46:54Z 2004-10-11T11:46:54Z none When I Think Of You The Tears Begin To Fall<br />The Way You Smile, The Way You Are,<br />I Guess You're Really Tall?<br />You Bright Blue Eyes That Make Me Melt,<br />You Can't Belive How Much I Felt.<br />How Much This Brings Me To Pain,<br />I Guess You Will Leave Me Empty,<br />No More To Drain?<br />As Much As I Question This Poem,<br />It Doesn't Make Any Sense.<br />All I Can Say Is I need You Here,<br />Don't Make Me Frown Or Even Fear.<br /><br /><br />...just a poem i wrote in class urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:2798 2004-10-09T09:23:47Z 2004-10-09T09:23:47Z nothing theres nothing to do in this place, its filled with sadness and stress. i like someone but am i going 2 go through the same thing as last time? will i go out with them and then try and get out of it? like i said to my friends i just need help when i start questioning? im already pissed off at the person i like well not pissed off more shocked...he made out with 3 girls when he said he liked me and he knew i liked him sure where not going out but still! and i just hear he wasnt stoned or drunk well he was kind of but he was neally fully sobber, its horrible since im not 2 pissed off coz 2 day has been emotional and i never excpected anything good would happen... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:2333 2004-10-09T08:07:29Z 2004-10-09T08:07:29Z none had 2 c him 2day, it was heart breaking every 5 seconds i broke down in tears...i hate this its 2 painful... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:2232 2004-10-08T08:58:46Z 2004-10-08T08:58:46Z some theme song 2 a tv show my eyes look all bright blue its so cool, c thats the only good thing about crying your eyes look awsome... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:my_emergancy:1840 2004-10-08T08:03:31Z 2004-10-08T08:03:31Z the simpsons theme song i dont know what to do or feel, mums crying and we have 2 go 2 the hospital tomorow to say good bye to grandad, its going to b sad they dont think his gonna make it through next week. this really bites i shall not cry i dont want my grandfather to no how weak i am on the innside and i dont want to make him feel horrible. mum sure can cry real loud, sorry that was insesative. i think i shall go now and talk to people on msn..dave if you read this can we talk about it? you seem to know how 2 make me do the right thing in these situations..