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Monday, December 19, 2005
9:43PM
dear hailey
you are the sweetest girl i know
you love and care for everyone around you
no i dont know you like the back of my hand
but i wish u did it would have to be a pretty big hand though
coz im sure there are lots of interesting things u could tell me
im glad i met you and wouldnt have it any other way
i wish i knew you a few years b4 so that we would have more time together
but im not going anywhere and i hope u arent either so we have a lot of time
i know you will be there if i ever get upset even though its terribly hard
to be upset around you since you always make me laugh
you treat everyone like there specialy and i know its not an act
i wish i was creative like you. so i could surprise you
with letters like this insted of being told to write them
but i spose its ok since these are all my special words for you
if i had a million photos i would put them here
so everyone can see how pretty u r
but this photo is my favorite
its our first photo together and we both look good
i love you hailey
dont forget it!
u mean a lot to me. :D
xoxo
Current mood:  amused
9:36PM
i havent written in forever
this year
totally pointless
i so could have done without it!
i have made lots of friends though
ones that i love ever so much
i have also lost friends
death and stupid fights
move on
be happy
ill use what i wrote in someones blog coz i liked it
have a merry christmas
and i hope next year will be a happy year not just for me or you but for all the other sufferes in the world.
love you all
xo
Current mood: cheerful
Saturday, July 23, 2005
i have lost a friend, not a close friend and i barely knew him but he was a friend.
he was such a nice guy and i hope he knows we love him ever so much.
i wish i got to know him more so at least he would recognise me but its to late now
i worry about everyone around me being ever so devistated and i hope they know i love them.
we will get through this because we have eachother.
xoxo
Current mood:  blank
Monday, March 28, 2005
9:22PM
so this is it
i told him
its not good
he doesnt like me
im sitting here balling my eyes out
i dont know i was exspecting it but it still hurts
i dont like the answer i have but ill live and ill get through this
hmm...
listening to wounded doesnt help
my chest hurts it feels like someone has ripped my heart out.
Lost and broken
Hopeless and lonely
Smiling on the outside
Hurt beneath my skin
My eyes are fading
My soul is bleeding
I'll try to make it seem okay
But my faith is wearing thin
So help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
But I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them up
I only wanted a magazine
I only wanted a movie screen
I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed
And now my mind is an open book
And now my heart is an open wound
And now my life is an open soul for all to see
But help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open and I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me
So you come along
I push you away
Then kick and scream for you to stay
Cuz I need someone to help me
Oh I need someone to help me
To help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them
I need someone to help me fill them
I need someone to help me close them up
Current mood:  crushed Current music: Wounded - GC
Saturday, March 26, 2005
6:11AM
well long time havent writen anything is ages
hmm well not much 2 say part from the fact im really fucked up
i like someone heaps and a few people know and i dont get it the person i like is pretty thick HE DOESNT SEE IT im so fucken obvious i would say what i do 2 make it obvious but its 2 risky for him 2 see i mean i want him 2 know but then again i dont its quite complicated. Right not its 2 early in the morning for my liking but o well i guess i cant help it.
ahaha im so calling bones t bone...yes! im brilliant.
hmm what else has been happening easter 2morow....yay! :|
im obsessing over stray cats and living end its great i mean ive always been obsessed with tle but its growing ever so much now and man the stray cats specialy brian setzer o its wonderful!
well i might as well type about 2day while i wait for the brian setzer orchestra video 2 download.
2day was really boring all i did was hang in the city with the goths it was so boring i mean they werent but just the day in general part from going 2 glorias with snowy and steegan that was fun we had a good ol' bitch lol...then went back 2 flinders 2 bum for a few more hours till i went home with kb. joyfull!
xoxo
Steph
Current mood: mmmm Current music: In The Mood - Brian Setzer Orchestra
Sunday, January 2, 2005
1:11PM
Lost and broken
Hopeless and lonely
Smiling on the outside
Hurt beneath my skin
My eyes are fading
My soul is bleeding
I'll try to make it seem okay
But my faith is wearing thin
So help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
But I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them up
I only wanted a magazine
I only wanted a movie screen
I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed
And now my mind is an open book
And now my heart is an open wound
And now my life is an open soul for all to see
But help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open and I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me
So you come along
I push you away
Then kick and scream for you to stay
Cuz I need someone to help me
Oh I need someone to help me
To help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them
I need someone to help me fill them
I need someone to help me close them up
...so true
Current mood: *sigh* Current music: good charlotte - wounded
Saturday, December 25, 2004
11:42AM
01. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
- lol many things....GOT MY GC TICKET!
02. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- i cant remeber mine but i made a new one
03. Did anyone close to you give birth?
- no but we did have a couple pregnat scares
04. Did anyone close to you die?
- yes my granfather
05. What countries did you visit?
- none
06. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
- going to england
07. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- missing hte mxpx concert, that was tragic
08. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
- passing school
09. What was your biggest failure?
- dont know
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
- yeah i was sick quite a lot
11. What was the best thing you bought?
- the GC album
12. 3 Favourite Bands of the year?
- Good Charlotte, The CLash and The knockabouts
13. 3 Favourite cd's of the year?
- the chronicals of life and death
- From Here On In
- Quality soft core
14. Where did most of your money go?
- gigs, alcohol and cds
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- GOOD CHARLOTTE TICKETS!!
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
- Today Is In My Way - mxpx
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happpier
ii. thinner or fatter? im the same
iii. richer or poorer? richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
- study
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
- msn (ur so right dave)
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
- with my family
21. What LJ users did you meet?
- ??
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
- yeah...kind of...not love but lust
23. How many one-night stands?
- a couple
24. What was your favorite TV program?
- futurama, 2 guys a girl and a pizza place, fawlty towers many more
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
- nope
26. What was the best book you read?
- the ELlie chronicals - john marsden
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- The Adicts
28. What did you want and get?
- GC TICKETS
29. What did you want and not get?
- creepers
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
- hmm to many to pick from
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
- 14 i cant remeber
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
- going to the mxpx concert
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
- eh' its what i wear
34. Did you get any piercings in 2004?
- nope
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
- GOOD CHARLOTTE
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
- screw politics
37. Who did you miss?
- mxpx
38. Who was the best new person you met?
- i met a lot of people and i love them all
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
- dont ask 4 things last minute
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
- 'Manifest individually
Manifest a sense of reality
Because it's non exclusive
Don't be so elusively blind
Things are never what they seem
You don't know what you'll find
Right now!' - mxpx
Current mood:  yay! Current music: murder - gc
11:31AM
man im so happy!!!!! i got good charlotte tickets for chrissy!!!!!!!! im sooooooo excited! yay! im going to the concert its so unreal, man i neally cried when i saw it i didnt belive it. im still shock
- steph
Current mood:  brilliant! Current music: GC - The World Is Black
Saturday, December 18, 2004
2:46PM
im all tierd like...mmm i should call shelley...
y doesn't she answer?
mm good old 99% Fat great band, i wish i could of seen them b4 they broke up.
nothing really 2 write...
- steph
Current mood:  i have hiccups Current music: 99% Fat - At The Meat
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
4:21PM
me and my brother spent all day cleaning the backyard,cleaning inside it was fun but im all sore...well my fingers r. mum decided 2 b funny and write 'backyard blitz' on the things 2 do, i crossed it out and worte 'child labour insted'grr brother sprayed me with the hose got nothing else 2 say
- steph
Current mood: sore
Thursday, December 9, 2004
8:35PM
well where do i begin
shelley said i didnt describe what happened at the party in detail, so i will.
So i get to the party with Maddy and gemma and we straight away start drinking (yay!) and i got tipsy off one VB it was embaressing and i got told off by jamia's mum she was like 'slow down missy' pft i had one beer and she was getting all worried. Anyway the cunt dogs played they were brilliant and so were twist and knockabouts. Lol grant got whiskey on his chest and he was like 'someone lick this whiskey off my chest' knowing me i did it lol it was fun. so forth so on me and grant hooked up people got worried coz we went off and they couldnt find us. Then we left we got kicked out and me and shelley stayed at gemmas. thats all that happened r u happy shelley?
- steph
Current mood:  doo doo doo Current music: GC - Mountain
Tuesday, December 7, 2004
7:00PM
ive been in good moods and bad moods.
the party was good....part from what happened with grant not saying i didn't enjoy it i just think it shouldn't of happened and Bec is for sure gonna hate me for it.
chorals has been stressful.
dont have much to say.
- luv steph
Current mood: mmm Current music: NoFX - there she goes
Sunday, November 28, 2004
8:48PM
i hold there drinks, bring there stuff back stage, bring there equiptment on stage, scratch there backs and then hang out with them after the gig come on how much more of a groupie can u be?
man today was so much fun, i love our friends so much!!!
a lot of people rocked up for the knockabouts and we skanked about had a little dance then we all stayed at fed square and chilaxed!! so fucken awsome!
Current mood: :) Current music: the end isnt far away!! *sings*
Friday, November 26, 2004
8:44PM
*smiles* im in a good mood.
after school today i was so happy, i was in such a loving mood.
We watched 'Heathers' but we didn't finish it. Oh Well Ruby told me the end anyway.
I had sport today and me and sarah just sat in near the portables coz we couldn't be bothered playing sport. We had a lovley talk about everything.
I think i still have feelings for hamish...hmmm...
o well don't know what i want right now.
my hands smell like sushi mmm sushi...
We went to flinders after school, that was semi fun, stupid grant was there and he called me a sloth so i'm not talking to him.
i'm going shopping tomorow with my mother for my chorals costume! should be fun then Sunday is The knockabouts i haven't asked if i can go yet i'll ask tomorow afternoon.
thats all i really have to say
luv steph
Current mood: hehehe Current music: mxpx - demo chick magnet
Monday, November 22, 2004
11:27AM
well today is a good day
im having fun
part from the so called 'friend' ditching me
and walking in the room when i was complaining about her being me and how she is genuraly a good person untill she decides to hate u
meh
o well
im ment to meet monica after school 2night
jaz wanted me 2 go with her to say good bye to lewy but i can't :(
so shes gonna give him 20 bucks and from me and tell him i say bye
ohh im gonna miss him...
why is everyone leaving us? well i no lewy is coming back but still
people like josh ain't
hmm which reminds me we need to find a place 2 have a party for him.
hmmmm me and bianca should sit down and think about this...
jamias party is soon
yay!
mmm i have to get grants birthday present soon, maybe this thursday...
i should go this period is neally done wow this day is going semi fast
catcha
Current mood:  kinda dizzy something smells.. Current music: none
Friday, November 19, 2004
6:05PM
might aswell make this my 17th entry.
*Sigh* mum & dad aint letting me go 2 the gig 2morow
im really upset
monica wants 2 get the knockabouts 2 dedicate the gig 2 me and other people who couldnt go
i doubt they love me enough.
*sigh*
Current mood: *sigh* Current music: It Wasn't Enough - GC
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
stupid feelings about people
i like 2 people at the moment
they both don't know, nor will they.
I don't like one more than the other.
There both awsome people, and so very different from each other.
It's so confusing.
shelleys bet is over.
i didn't so much give in, i just realised how stupid it was (thank you andrew)
bloody gabe, haven't spoken to him in ages.
he thinks hes done something wrong, he hasn't his just never online when im on.
knockabouts playing this weekend.
Saturday,The Knockabouts (*does dance*), Area 7 (yay!), H Block (yay!yay!), SLC & Nurnberger. The Tote, 12pm. $12.
yay! come it will b fun...whoeva u are...
Current mood: boop! boop! boop! Current music: nice n' sleazy - The Stranglers
Saturday, November 13, 2004
9:56PM
ok so i dont write anymore its not like anyone reads this
ive been having fun latley
i love my friends so much
i have taken heaps of photos of them
ive been mostly hanging out with people and today we had so much fun
we went bowling for shelleys birthday
then we went got lunch then they got ice cream ( i dont eat ice cream)
then we met up with Wade and Joesph and we went to gloria j/geans (cant spell it)
it was so funny those to put 2gether is like watching the comedy channel
we sat and talked about cake (hehehe) and other funny stuff
then we all went back to flinders
i was forced by Jethro to go down to the park 4 the 50th time that day
then we went and told cam that monica liked him
jethro wanted 2 drink in the tree with me and maddy but i didnt want to coz it brought back to many memories not saying they were bad but its something that would b a bit awquade.
I couldnt find monica for half an hour and i got pissed off coz i wanted to go home
i finaly found her and we went home
so that was my wonderful day
tomorow i get to see the knockabouts it shall be so much fun!
Current mood: yay! Current music: the adicts - who spilt my beer
Friday, November 5, 2004
6:47PM
man im bored i should b writing 2 my pen pal but i havent writen in this for ages! *yawn* mm i have gemmas b'day party this friday it shall b joyful well if i find out what were doin then ill tell u if it will b joyful well imm talking 2 people on msn so its kinda hard 2 write now
Current mood: *smiles* Current music: none
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
5:09PM
:( i didnt go 2 mxpx it shows how much my parents hate me! its not fare i really really wanted to go and im so depresed about it but i guess they will come around again :( o well...
anyway on a happier note i met the new guy in stars n stripes his really cool but andy the bastard was being so mean 2 me!!:p!! o well ill get him back sooner or later...my jacket is neally done i have 2 put 2 more patches on then super glue some stuff on it should look good! well i have nothing really 2 say..
Current mood: crappy... Current music: living end
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